FINA11Y IT'S OUR TIME NOW! :)

SENIOR YEAR! yesss! The year that I have been waiting for for oh so long! This year is off to a rockin' start and here's all that I have ALREADY done this year and the things I LOVE about this year:

1. Camp Lookout mentoring retreat..such a good way to start the new year! :)

2. Jamboree football game.

3. Breakup dinner with my girl t-neal.

4. Colbie Caillat concert ft. We the Kings.

5. Movie Nights every saturday!

6. Pool Parties.

7. Ice Cream Fights!

8. First Home Football game!

9. Physics totally kicking my butt..but loving every minute of the class.

10. Having the bestest friends ever!

11. Thatcher Smith..enough said!

This year is only going to get even better! ohh how I love being a senior!

Peace and Blessings! :)

"Life is short, love is sweet, ain't not time like this time baby"

Summer is here, friends are wonderful, and life is amazing! I just love summer time, the feeling that you can wake up whenever you want (if I'm not working), get in the car, and just head out to wherever your heart desires...well with a little permission from the parentals first. I love the hot summer sun, summer nights, and the carefreeness of life. I love driving with my windows down blaring music, matching all my sunglasses to my outfits, not having to cover up a cute outfit with a big jacket, laying out in the sun (even though I don't tan very well), throwing on a cute dress and sandals, having 'beach hair', working at the EO as much as i hate it, I love the people I work with, making playlists on my ipod titled 'summer lovin' or 'sweet sweet summertime'..yes I am a little obsessed with summer..and music, but that's irrelivant. Anyway, this summer is kind of bittersweet. Well, duh it's sweet because it's summer, but it's my last summer to spend with my friends before we all start worrying about heading off to college, or orentation, or working so we can save up money for college. Summer 2010 has to be the most amazing summer ever and I am for sure that this is going to be a summer to remember! From going to Hilton Head with my sister and her sweet little family, to a little road trip up to Nashville with my mom, I know that this summer is going to have so many memories, and moments that I will cherish forever! So summer 2010, here we go!

If I get up I might fall back down again..let's get up, come on!

"I think that we can accept things when they are fair and just..but when we know that they are wrong and not correct, we have a harder time getting over it and accepting the fact that we may have "failed" at something that in all honesty we didn't fail at..we were merely cheated out of something that we deserved."

I've never been the most flexible girl out there. I played soccer are a kid and couldn't be in for more than five minutes because i would get tired. I loved music and singing, that was my passion. It wasn't until last year that I realized what I truly loved doing. Whether it was being in a gym performing for a pep rally or being under those bright stadium lights on friday nights, I fell in love with cheering. I wasn't the best one out there, I couldn't tumble, I couldn't jump that high, but when I cheered and danced, everything felt right. I looked forward to friday nights each week, in a way, it kind of kept me going throughout my week. I LOVED cheering. It felt right and i felt like it was what I was supposed to be doing! I made the squad in April 2009 and practice started immediately for the annual blue and white game..I was so scared to cheer for my first time. But with some help and encouragement, I did it! and that was the moment that I realized that I loved it! We held little girl camp at the end of school in May and it felt amazing to have all the Elementary girls look up to you; to want to be you. They clung to our every word, and always tried to get us to pick them up and hold their hands. Cheering made me feel like I was special and that someone actually looked up to me! We went to "big girl camp" in June and I was SO nervous about going, I didn't know what to expect and I was so afraid that I would be so behind and not make friendships with the girls. I wanted so badly to be liked. Camp was great and we won 'camp-champs' and it was the best feeling! August rolled around and it was time for the first football game. I had learned the cheers, the dances, and how to do the spirit tunnel and I was ready for it all..little did I know that I could hardly remember the cheers and that I was so nervous! Football season lasted forever and I loved every minute of it! We went to state, and lost, but it was still an amazing experience. I thank God for the opportunity that he gave me to cheer and have that confidence that I could do anything! I'm gonna miss those bright lights, and those Friday nights next year...my senior year..i guess I never thought that it was an option that I would not cheer..but I guess we don't always get what we expect. Anyways, my junior year was amazing because I got to try something new, and little did i expect, I fell in love with it! I truly did love it..but someone took that love away from me, and I can not make myself believe that I did not make the football squad. But whatever, there's nothing that can change that now. So, to all those who believed in me, thanks you got me through one of the hardest things that I have ever done, and to all those who didn't think I could do it..thanks for the extra push to try harder! I will always love cheering, and it will always be apart of me, even if I am the only returning senior that got stuck on basketball..I am still going to be positive and cheer like it's my last year...oh wait it is!

Little girl cheer camp!

Camp Champs 2009!

Picture day! Love these girls!

The little girls from cheer camp cheered with us at the first homegame! sweet Joy!

My favorite picture!

LOVE my Elizabeth!

So many memories!

After winning homecoming! such an amazing game!

Game before state!

Limo up to state!

Competition!

The Last Song

The Last Song is by far the best book that I have ever read! I have never been a "reader," I've always just wanted to see the movie when it came out, but after reading The Last Song, I have officially fallen in love with a book. I bought it Thursday night and finished it on Saturday, I read it every free chance I got. At work, all I did was sit and read (unless we had customers, which was rare) I just could not put it down. I guess I loved it because I could relate to it. A boy and a girl that both had to go their own separate ways, but yet still knew that they wanted to be together and knew that they loved each other. The book was not at all like I expected, but in many ways, I loved that fact. It surprised me, and in some cases really made me think. My favorite quote from the book comes from close to the ending , it says:

" Life, He realized, was much like a song.

In the beginning there is a mystery, in the end there is confirmation, but it's the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile."

I guess I loved the book because it had to do with love and music, both of which I am a sucker for. But I would strongly suggest this book to everyone! I have never cried as hard as I did reading this book. Literally, I couldn't breath I was crying so hard!

Even bigger plus! The movie comes out on March 31, needless to say, I will be going that day to see it!

I say goodbye to snowy skys, and hello to sunny afternoons!

Spring is here! ahhh, it is probably my favorite season, other than winter, because it's my birthday and christmas! ;) Today it was sunny with a high of 75! I love love love it! I got my shorts and t-shirt out of my closet, and put on my chacos on and set out on my day! There are many reasons why I love spring, and this warm weather, and here is my top 15 reasons why!

1. DRESSES! I love wearing dresses, and after being put up for all fall and winter, it's time to get them back out!

2. Flip-flops and cute sandals!

3. Flowers, expecially gerber dasies! so gorgeous

4. Picnicks, even though I have never been on one, i'm thinking that it would be a prefect thing to do this spring!

5. Easter. I just love when my whole family gets together and we just talk and have fun, and big plus, this year is going to be at my house!

6. Walking in the park. Lets face it, i'm a hopeless romantic, but I just love the idea of walking hand and hand with your guy through a park, presh!

7. No more football and basketball on tv, well after march madness! ah, I can not wait for it to be over!

8. The Last Song is coming out march 31! I started the book last night, and could not put it down I am already on page 113.

9. The Color Purple: The musical is coming to Chattanooga, thank you daddy!

10. The drive in movie theator! Well, I have actually never been, but it sounds like fun, so hopefully I'll get to go this year!

11. Glee returning to TV!

12. PROM! i have my dress, shoes (got them today and they are gorgeous) and a date..i am officially ready!

13. New spring clothes! I already got my new bikini and purse! so I am ready to hit the beach!

14. Baby sitting Kate..hopefully Hailey will be okay to leave her alone with me...which I am already amazing with her anyways, so I'm not really sure why she wouldn't!

15. Traveling! I am going to Hilton Head with Hailey and Steven this June, and then in July, I am going to visit my brother in Arizona! (first time flying alone!)

Oh Spring and warm weather! How I love thee! This is going to be an excellent Spring and Summer!

All of you, shape me into what I am!

The play is over, Spring Break is going on, and life is oh so good and carefree! You know when life teaches us things that we don't expect in moments that we least expect them? Well, welcome to my life last week. I've always had my group of friends, I would talk to other people in the halls or classes, and even though I have been going to school with people for years, I never really got to know them. So here's my big "thank you" to the play! I got to know 47 of the coolest people at our school. From the "band nerds" to the "jocks" we all came together as one. The last week of rehersal we were like a family, we would all eat dinner together, guys would come find me backstage and ask me to 'touch up their fake beards' or make sure their eyeliner wasn't smudged. We did everything together, and it was great. Throughout the whole experience, I realized that I only have one more year of high school left, and as much as it makes me sad, I have to take these moments and cherish them because I will never get them back. The last performance, on Saturday night, we all sang I'm Yours by Jason Mraz, and the line "We're just one big family" made me sad, because we were just one big family, and even though all 47 of us will never share that stage in the Tom Jett Gymnasium again, they will all have a place in my heart, and memories that I will truly cherish for the rest of my life! To the cast, thank ya'll for making round 3 of the musical the best yet! I love ya'll!

The whole cast of Joseph!

The ending!

Taytip and me..final bows!

Thatcher, one of the sweetest guys I have ever met, simply precious! :)

So, every year Jessica and I have always had classes together, but I have never taken the chance to get to know her, and I regret that so much! I love her!

Check out Mitch's awesome beard. I did all the guys fake beards for the show, it was so much fun! ohh the boys dressing room! I got to know those guys wayyy more than i was expecting!

Go Go Go Joseph!

This week is my play. Joseph and The Amazing Colored Dream Coat. Needless to say, I am completly nervous about it! I can hardly sleep, and I am somewhat freaking out about Friday night when those bright royal blue curtians open, the lights hit the stage, and the music begins. I've always been on stage, so i don't know why I am freaking out about it, but I guess it's the fact that I sing constantly, and am only off stage for two scenes. One importiant thing that I have learned from this play is even though you hit rock bottom and you feel like you can't go anywhere, God is always there to pick us up! In the play, Joseph is betrayed twice, first from his brothers and then by Potopher. He is locked up in a cell and all hope is lost. He feels like there is on where else for him to go and no where for him to turn, but then he realizes that even when we are at rock bottom, God will come and pick us up! He will never leave us and forsake us! Friday night when that curtian opens, I am going to sing my heart out, because I have been given this awesome oppurtunity to use my gifts and sing for the Lord! :)

3 performances:

friday 7:00

Saturday 2:00

Saturday 7:00

every song ends....

“Every song has a CODA, a final movement. Whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends. Is that any reason not to enjoy the music? The truth is, there is nothing to be afraid of. "

Music is MY thing. Not singing, not playing the piano, but music. Plugging in my ipod, turning it up and tuning out the world for a small moment. It's the feeling that I get when I discover new songs, the songs that say exactly what I want to say, but I can't. The songs that I LOVE describe me, my life, and things i go through perfectly. It's the feeling that you get when you start to play a song, and the you feel like they're singing right to you, the words fit you perfectly. How about making a mix cd for someone, say a boy, and every song on that cd has a special meaning, but that boy probably won't know what the meaning is because he doesn't get the music like you do. Normal radio songs don't impress me...they don't get put to the top of my fav song list just because everyone else likes them, sure I'll sing them because they're catchy, but they won't make an impact on my life. I like songs that I can remember where I was when I first heard them, or they describe a special moment or event in my life. A song by the group "Avalon" made me realize that I was not saved, and I can remember everything about that moment in my life. Taylor Swift's "Breath" I remember hearing for the first time after a long and stressful day and I was relaxing in a bubble bath, and it came on and I cried. I can't listen to anything by Secondhand Serenade because it reminds me of my ex boyfriend and how every song that I listened to reminded me of him. Colbie Caillat: Battle came on my ipod right after my boyfriend broke up with me in the OutBack parking lot..needless to say, I bawled like a baby! Music defines me, it makes me me, it makes me happy, sad, and sometimes even mad. Music is the one thing that I will always have, it never fades, what an amazing thing we have in such a simple sound!

Walk on The Water too!

What are we living for? Are we really here to have a happy life, and then go on and die and go to heaven..because you were a "good person." You didn't have a relationship with Christ, Church wasn't your thing, you didn't kill anyone, you didn't commit crimes, you were a good person...so basically since you were a good person, you are going to heaven, right? WRONG! It isn't about being a good person, it's not about saying that one prayer, or saying that i was baptized and so since i did that, i am officially going to heaven, and that's it. You profess the name of Christ and then you go out and do whatever you want...God will forgive you right? Yes, God is a forgiving and loving God, but I think we miss the concept that he is also an angry God, a jealous God. You can't go out and do whatever you want and expect that God just pat you on your little head and be like 'oh it's okay! Go on and live your life and do whatever you want!' SO many people live their lives with the mind set of 'It's okay if I do this, because I've been "saved" and God will forgive me.' How dumb are we??? OH MY GOODNESS! The bible says that if we LOVE God then we will HATE the world! There is no in-between! When we are truly in love and in a relationship with Christ then we WANT to please him, and do what he wants us to do. He wants us to love him and call out to him for help, not some self-help book that is supposed to allow us to have a happier life in ten easy steps..i'll give you one step CHRIST! That's it! THE END! if you're empty, then HE is ALL you need...forever and ever! HIM. Cry out to him, fall on your face, fall on your knees...cry to him! He has you in his hand, all you have to do is acknowledge him and call to him, and he will be there for you! He says that he will never leave us or forsake us..NEVER! He is always here. We will fall away and just start going through the motions. But I am sick of that! SO SO SO SICK OF IT! This blog is for me, straight up. I guess it takes being broken to see your life and how you are living is not pleasing to the Lord. I want my legacy to be that girl that loved Christ regardless of what happened to me. So i am ready, ready to put my sinful ways behind me, and I am ready to jump into the arms of Christ, because that's where I know that I will ALWAYS be safe! Today is Feb 3, 2010, and this is it. End of old Kendra Johnson, time for a change! :)

You look around and staring back at you

Another wave of doubt will pull you under

You wonder

What if I'm overtaken

What if I never make it

What if no one's there

Will you hear my prayer

When you take that first step

Into the unknown

You know that He won't let you go

So what are you waiting for

What do you have to lose

Your insecurities

They try to hold to you

But you know you're made for more

So don't be afraid to move

Your faith is all it takes

And you can walk on the water too

So get out and let your fear fall to the ground

No time to waste, don't wait

And don't you turn around, and miss out on

Everything you were made for

Gotta be, I know you're not sure, more

So you play it safe, you try to run away

If you take that first step

Into the unknown

He won't let you go

So what are you waiting for

What do you have to lose

Your insecurities

They try to hold to you

But you know you're made for more

So don't be afraid to move

Your faith is all it takes

And you can walk on the water too

Step out even when it's storming

Step out even when you're broken

Step out even when your heart is telling you, telling you to give up

Step out even when your hope is stolen

Step out you can't see where you're going

Don't have to be afraid

So what are you waiting what are you waiting for

So what are you waiting for

What do you have to lose

Your insecurities

They try to hold to you

But you know you're made for more

So don't be afraid to move

Your faith is all it takes

And you can walk on the water too

By: Britt Nicole

I'm starting with the girl in the mirror

"life is going to push you around, it's going to beat you up, and it's going to scare you. But then, one day, you realize...you're not just a survivor, you're a fighter." -One Tree Hill

NOTHING in this world is going to last forever.The only person that we can rely on is Jesus. I learned that the hard way this week..You think you have stability in something, and then boom, everything changes in seconds. I thought that I was going to be the girl with the same friends all throughout high school..I was going to beat the odds and we were all going to remain the best friends that we had been for 2 years...Boy, was i wrong. My world was turned upside down on monday when two of my best friends decided that they didn't want to sit with me and my other friends at lunch..hello, is this middle school? I'm not gonna sit with you..seriously? It totally showed me that people are going to let you down, they are not always going to be the same, and things change in just a single second. I guess that I just wasn't good enough, "Godly" enough, or just what they were needing in their life at the time, but needless to say, I am left broken, hurt, and without my best friend. I don't feel like I can really talk to them in the hallway and be normal, classes are super awkward, we don't talk at night anymore..and all because they wanted to sit somewhere else and didn't want to hang out with us anymore..I guess people change and change their minds..whatever, I get it. But maybe this is what I should be getting from all this, I need to change, not them. Honestly, i can't tell you when the last time I opened up my Bible on my own and just read it..I haven't prayed in months, the music I listen to is mostly secular, not bad secular, but i was on a pretty good streak to only listening to Christian music. So, i'm gonna stop looking at them, and wondering why they changed their minds, but instead i'm gonna look to my own self. Yeah, it's the hardest thing to admit that you're wrong..I'm going to start with the man(girl) in the mirror. (hehe cheesy Michael Jackson) that seems to be the song that all my friends LOVE! It's time for ME to make the change, the change that could forever change my life, and honeslty, this kind of change will only make my like a million times better. Because i'm not just surviving this life, but I am LIVING this life to the fullest, giving it my all, giving HIM my all! no more old me, goodbye! it's time, time to make a change! :)

Jump Then Fall!

"I can't breath without you, but I have to. People are people, and sometimes it doesn't work out." You break up, cry a little, and then the next week your back in the game, time to find a new guy, your old relationship didn't matter...right? WRONG! months and months can pass, and you will still be completely in love, devoted to the person that broke your heart..but why? Why can't we just get over someone and move on with our lives? why is it so hard to wake up in the mornings and do what we have to do when we know something's missing? LOVE: the most powerful word. We say it to describe everything..if we like something a lot, we "love" it. When the newness of a relationship wears off, we take it to the next level, not physical, but emotional, by dropping the L word. The word that all girls die to hear.."I love you" means so much, but these days, it's just common to say that to whomever your in a relationship with. and then ya'll break up. So, you move on, you find someone new, and then what..you love that person too? so that's two relationships, two people you say you love...two people that you probably won't marry, because 95% of the time, you don't marry your high school "love." sucks doesn't it? But maybe that's what it's all about..knowing that you're not in this forever, and going into the relationship knowing that it is going to end eventually. Hey, think about it, there's two options in dating, you get married or break up. the end, no in-between crazy huh? So maybe that's it, it's knowing that no matter the heart breaks, the unreturned calls, the misread signals, you never gave up hope. you were willing to jump into a relationship and then maybe, possibly fall in love..jump then fall right? Love, it's a powerful thing, it's the strongest thing, it's the hardest thing. It's the thing that we all live for."Falling in love is the easiest thing you'll ever do. It's the most exciting thing, it's the most powerful thing. That's why falling out of love hurts like heck. But falling in love, there's nothing better, it's the best it ever gets" -One Tree Hill