I'm Letting go..

Plans...Officially not making anymore!..It seems like the more and more that I make plans, the more and more that they fall apart. I make plans for my future and in a single moment, every plan that I have made is donzo. gone. nothing. So thus, planning is just not going to happen anymore. And with the plans being gone, so is my love life. Sorry guys, but this girl is done with dating. For now at least. I know that God has an AMAZING guy out there for me, and I highly doubt that I have found him yet, so I am not going to kiss a bunch of frogs to find my prince. It took some jerks at lunch being super upfront with me but I get it now...God has someone already prepared for me and that person is going to make me totally understand why it didn't work before, so why should I date randoms in order to find the right one? So for now, I am waiting.. and letting go of all my plans. Ya know, the 4 years of college, engaged junior year and then married by senior..it's probably not going to happen, and I am ok with that. But until I meet Mr. Perfect, I am not going to waste my time on temporary guys...or 'losers' as my sister calls them. So here it is in writing..or typing, that I am donzo and no more dating.!

xoxo kendra! :)

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I love loving you...

LOVE:: Finding new songs. Smiling. Laughing. Long talks with friends. Jessica's awesome stories. My job. Raviee. Cleaning out my car. Love. Being a hopeless romantic. Singing like a fool in my car. Dancing to Solo with T. Neal. Boyd-Buchanan. Long talks with Jordan. Taylor Swift songs. Rain. Rainboots. Surprises. My precious niece Kate. People that make everyone around them feel good. Ice Cream. Musicals. Girls nights. Colbie Caillats awesome dancing ability. My sissy. Long talks with my mommy. Driving at night. Songs that fit perfectly with my life. Hello Kitty. When the song that you wanna hear comes on the radio/ your ipod. Strawberry Lemon-aid from Panera. Pumpkin Spice Lattes. Lyrics. Dresses. Getting ready to go out. Curls. Sparkly Nail Polish. Kiko. Christmas Cookie Yankee Candle. Earring's. Glozelle. Hilton Head. Lady Gaga. Making lists..like 1. 2. 3. etc. Locked texts. One tree hill. Gerbera Daises. Crazy hair. Confidence. My sweet friends. Lifetime games. Scarfs. Chapstick. Molly Bojangles. Country Boys. Country music. Chocolate covered strawberries. Football games. Fall. Thunder storms. Black and White pics. Summer. Tennessee. Rita's. Dancing with my friends in my car. Panera. Starbucks. Taylor Swift. Kisses. Tweeting. My Mac. iPhone. My Job. Country Side. Guys who actually know how to treat a girl. Giving gifts. 'mom' sweat shirts. And more than likely, if you are reading this..I love YOU!

FINA11Y IT'S OUR TIME NOW! :)

SENIOR YEAR! yesss! The year that I have been waiting for for oh so long! This year is off to a rockin' start and here's all that I have ALREADY done this year and the things I LOVE about this year:

1. Camp Lookout mentoring retreat..such a good way to start the new year! :)

2. Jamboree football game.

3. Breakup dinner with my girl t-neal.

4. Colbie Caillat concert ft. We the Kings.

5. Movie Nights every saturday!

6. Pool Parties.

7. Ice Cream Fights!

8. First Home Football game!

9. Physics totally kicking my butt..but loving every minute of the class.

10. Having the bestest friends ever!

11. Thatcher Smith..enough said!

This year is only going to get even better! ohh how I love being a senior!

Peace and Blessings! :)

"Life is short, love is sweet, ain't not time like this time baby"

Summer is here, friends are wonderful, and life is amazing! I just love summer time, the feeling that you can wake up whenever you want (if I'm not working), get in the car, and just head out to wherever your heart desires...well with a little permission from the parentals first. I love the hot summer sun, summer nights, and the carefreeness of life. I love driving with my windows down blaring music, matching all my sunglasses to my outfits, not having to cover up a cute outfit with a big jacket, laying out in the sun (even though I don't tan very well), throwing on a cute dress and sandals, having 'beach hair', working at the EO as much as i hate it, I love the people I work with, making playlists on my ipod titled 'summer lovin' or 'sweet sweet summertime'..yes I am a little obsessed with summer..and music, but that's irrelivant. Anyway, this summer is kind of bittersweet. Well, duh it's sweet because it's summer, but it's my last summer to spend with my friends before we all start worrying about heading off to college, or orentation, or working so we can save up money for college. Summer 2010 has to be the most amazing summer ever and I am for sure that this is going to be a summer to remember! From going to Hilton Head with my sister and her sweet little family, to a little road trip up to Nashville with my mom, I know that this summer is going to have so many memories, and moments that I will cherish forever! So summer 2010, here we go!

If I get up I might fall back down again..let's get up, come on!

"I think that we can accept things when they are fair and just..but when we know that they are wrong and not correct, we have a harder time getting over it and accepting the fact that we may have "failed" at something that in all honesty we didn't fail at..we were merely cheated out of something that we deserved."

I've never been the most flexible girl out there. I played soccer are a kid and couldn't be in for more than five minutes because i would get tired. I loved music and singing, that was my passion. It wasn't until last year that I realized what I truly loved doing. Whether it was being in a gym performing for a pep rally or being under those bright stadium lights on friday nights, I fell in love with cheering. I wasn't the best one out there, I couldn't tumble, I couldn't jump that high, but when I cheered and danced, everything felt right. I looked forward to friday nights each week, in a way, it kind of kept me going throughout my week. I LOVED cheering. It felt right and i felt like it was what I was supposed to be doing! I made the squad in April 2009 and practice started immediately for the annual blue and white game..I was so scared to cheer for my first time. But with some help and encouragement, I did it! and that was the moment that I realized that I loved it! We held little girl camp at the end of school in May and it felt amazing to have all the Elementary girls look up to you; to want to be you. They clung to our every word, and always tried to get us to pick them up and hold their hands. Cheering made me feel like I was special and that someone actually looked up to me! We went to "big girl camp" in June and I was SO nervous about going, I didn't know what to expect and I was so afraid that I would be so behind and not make friendships with the girls. I wanted so badly to be liked. Camp was great and we won 'camp-champs' and it was the best feeling! August rolled around and it was time for the first football game. I had learned the cheers, the dances, and how to do the spirit tunnel and I was ready for it all..little did I know that I could hardly remember the cheers and that I was so nervous! Football season lasted forever and I loved every minute of it! We went to state, and lost, but it was still an amazing experience. I thank God for the opportunity that he gave me to cheer and have that confidence that I could do anything! I'm gonna miss those bright lights, and those Friday nights next year...my senior year..i guess I never thought that it was an option that I would not cheer..but I guess we don't always get what we expect. Anyways, my junior year was amazing because I got to try something new, and little did i expect, I fell in love with it! I truly did love it..but someone took that love away from me, and I can not make myself believe that I did not make the football squad. But whatever, there's nothing that can change that now. So, to all those who believed in me, thanks you got me through one of the hardest things that I have ever done, and to all those who didn't think I could do it..thanks for the extra push to try harder! I will always love cheering, and it will always be apart of me, even if I am the only returning senior that got stuck on basketball..I am still going to be positive and cheer like it's my last year...oh wait it is!

Little girl cheer camp!

Camp Champs 2009!

Picture day! Love these girls!

The little girls from cheer camp cheered with us at the first homegame! sweet Joy!

My favorite picture!

LOVE my Elizabeth!

So many memories!

After winning homecoming! such an amazing game!

Game before state!

Limo up to state!

Competition!

The Last Song

The Last Song is by far the best book that I have ever read! I have never been a "reader," I've always just wanted to see the movie when it came out, but after reading The Last Song, I have officially fallen in love with a book. I bought it Thursday night and finished it on Saturday, I read it every free chance I got. At work, all I did was sit and read (unless we had customers, which was rare) I just could not put it down. I guess I loved it because I could relate to it. A boy and a girl that both had to go their own separate ways, but yet still knew that they wanted to be together and knew that they loved each other. The book was not at all like I expected, but in many ways, I loved that fact. It surprised me, and in some cases really made me think. My favorite quote from the book comes from close to the ending , it says:

" Life, He realized, was much like a song.

In the beginning there is a mystery, in the end there is confirmation, but it's the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile."

I guess I loved the book because it had to do with love and music, both of which I am a sucker for. But I would strongly suggest this book to everyone! I have never cried as hard as I did reading this book. Literally, I couldn't breath I was crying so hard!

Even bigger plus! The movie comes out on March 31, needless to say, I will be going that day to see it!

I say goodbye to snowy skys, and hello to sunny afternoons!

Spring is here! ahhh, it is probably my favorite season, other than winter, because it's my birthday and christmas! ;) Today it was sunny with a high of 75! I love love love it! I got my shorts and t-shirt out of my closet, and put on my chacos on and set out on my day! There are many reasons why I love spring, and this warm weather, and here is my top 15 reasons why!

1. DRESSES! I love wearing dresses, and after being put up for all fall and winter, it's time to get them back out!

2. Flip-flops and cute sandals!

3. Flowers, expecially gerber dasies! so gorgeous

4. Picnicks, even though I have never been on one, i'm thinking that it would be a prefect thing to do this spring!

5. Easter. I just love when my whole family gets together and we just talk and have fun, and big plus, this year is going to be at my house!

6. Walking in the park. Lets face it, i'm a hopeless romantic, but I just love the idea of walking hand and hand with your guy through a park, presh!

7. No more football and basketball on tv, well after march madness! ah, I can not wait for it to be over!

8. The Last Song is coming out march 31! I started the book last night, and could not put it down I am already on page 113.

9. The Color Purple: The musical is coming to Chattanooga, thank you daddy!

10. The drive in movie theator! Well, I have actually never been, but it sounds like fun, so hopefully I'll get to go this year!

11. Glee returning to TV!

12. PROM! i have my dress, shoes (got them today and they are gorgeous) and a date..i am officially ready!

13. New spring clothes! I already got my new bikini and purse! so I am ready to hit the beach!

14. Baby sitting Kate..hopefully Hailey will be okay to leave her alone with me...which I am already amazing with her anyways, so I'm not really sure why she wouldn't!

15. Traveling! I am going to Hilton Head with Hailey and Steven this June, and then in July, I am going to visit my brother in Arizona! (first time flying alone!)

Oh Spring and warm weather! How I love thee! This is going to be an excellent Spring and Summer!